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The Triptych by Photopathica The Triptych by Photopathica
Daily Deviation? :faint:

These paintings, they mean so much to me.
They show my journey, they show my victory.
They show how important art is for me, as a healing process, as an outlet, as comfort.

And I'm so very touched that it means so much to others too.

Thank you so much Nichrysalis for suggesting it, and thank you so much Astralseed for featuring it!

And thank YOU all so very much for all the comments and favs!

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This is my pride.
A series of paintings I made from autumn 2004 to spring 2005.

It shows the stages of suffering.

This was the worst time of my life. I was in really bad mental shape. Anxiety, panic attacks, depression, suicidal thoughts and self harm 24/7.
I was in school then, in another town away from home. My teacher was trying to help me come up with something to create, and he browsed through my sketch pad, and found a small doodle that I've made long before that. And he said: Make a painting out of this. And then I thought it would be great as a series, and that is how this came to be.

When I made this, I was in stage 2, the middle painting. I really never thought that I would ever get to stage 3, the last painting. I never thought I would be able to heal.
But I did, that's where I am now. I'm healing.

These are three separate paintings - Oil on stretched canvas, each are 50x50 cm.


Featured: Daily Deviation receiversMy deviantART StoryWe Will Continue To Heal , Spotlight on photopathica!



Triptych I by Photopathica Triptych II by Photopathica  Triptych III by Photopathica


This is a slightly edited document, I have cloned the backgrounds of these three paintings so that they would blend in more with the background of the document.
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Daily Deviation

Given 2014-01-31
The suggester said: A very surreal piece with a very realistic portrayal of the healing process. The Triptych by Photopathica ( Suggested by Nichrysalis and Featured by Astralseed )
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Among us, you are among us, we are strange , yet you are among us
, you've seen the pain, the unforeseen consequences
, you've tested reality and seen its truth, the abomination
, the horror that resides within the mind of the human being
, not only you have witnessed it, you bested it.

You did something I couldn't do, I'm wounded
, I'm bleeding, I am not healing, I applaud you.


For me this morning is very strange, for once in my life,
i am happy, am I healing ?

You have encouraged me to start drawing, maybe one day I will
achieve what you achieved.
What do you think?
The Artist thought this was FAIR
5 out of 5 deviants thought this was fair.

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SplashyLove Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Student General Artist
*gives hug and kisses top of the head*
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:iconphotopathica:
Photopathica Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2014   General Artist
:huggle:
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NitelyHallow Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
you finally got a daily deviation :D!!!! congratulations!!! pretty amazing what can happen when you put your thoughts and feelings/emotions and experiences into a visual piece such as this...art in many ways can do wonders when it comes to healing you emotionally.  Art for many people can be like a safe haven. I hope this process has truly helped you to view things a little differently, in a way where it is possible to heal:) !!
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014   General Artist
oh, it's my second one actually! got my first in may last year :)
but this one is special, since it's such a personal piece, it's amazing that it can mean so much to others too :)

thank you :hug: art has truly helped me
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violinprincess Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is beautiful! It offers the realization of hope to those still in stage 2. Stage 3 is there, even if sometimes it doesn't seem like it. Although I haven't been through an experience as hard as this describes, it is still a beautiful piece.
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014   General Artist
thanks a lot!
i really hope that stories like mine can help people that are still very much deep in the suffering.
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HorrorHorseAnimation Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Beautiful painting but...OUCH, SKULL...
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:iconphotopathica:
Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014   General Artist
thanks a lot!
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Miss-Ag Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Amazing concept. i understand your suffering and love this. great job. 
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014   General Artist
thank you so much :)
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LaughingSkeleton Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Brilliant work.

It does say to me that in life there are scars; they may heal, but they will always make a mark.

Scars aren't always bad, they can be good to provide a lesson or a new found passion.
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014   General Artist
thank you so much!

oh no, scars themselves are not bad. it's the reason that they are there that can be either good or bad, depending on who is looking at them.
i have many physical scars, i will always have them, and so i will always be reminded of the hell that i was in.
but i will also be reminded of that i got out, and for that reason, i will never trye to remove them or hide them
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Moldy-Monster Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Student General Artist

OH MY GOSH

I RECOGNIZE THIS, I WAS ONE OF THE FIRST PEOPLE TO COMMENT ON THIS ON MY OLD ACCOUNT :iconmoldymonster: BACK IN AUGUST LAST YEAR, ONE OF THE RARE TIMES I'VE COMMENTED ON SOMETHING AND... AND... ADJKFAKJ...

Congrats on the DD, you deserved it! ;u;

And I hope you're almost completely healed by now, if not completely, the latter would be better. ;u;

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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014   General Artist
thank you so much :hug:
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iMariposa Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is amazing. I feel like I am in stage two as well. It's great to hear from someone who's actually been there that it does really end some day. Thank you so much for this.
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014   General Artist
thank you so much as well!
i know where you are, and i know that it's hard, and even impossible, to think that life can be different, that it can be enjoyable.
i can only wish you much good luck with getting to the stage of healing, and i also wish you a lot of courage and will power :hug:
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iMariposa Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you :) and all the best to you on your continued journey to wholeness Nod 
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:iconphotopathica:
Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014   General Artist
thank you :)
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iMariposa Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
No problem
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Fallenflame13 Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014
These are wonderful~ And very deep~~~ Congrats in the DD
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014   General Artist
thanks a lot!
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Chakat-Stripedfur Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014
Thank you for sharing this, and your pain, with the rest of the world.  I used to cut myself just to watch myself bleed and know I could still feel something.  I was suicidal back in '00 because of a bad relationship, and it took me four years to get over being suicidal, and even more years to get over the pain.  She had told me she was breaking up with her boyfriend, so as a friend I talked to her and offered her my shoulder to cry on to comfort her (she claimed she was getting out of a bad relationship).  It soon turned to more than friendship, I thought on both sides, but it turned out it was just on mine.  It was serious enough on my end that I actually asked her to be my first (I was, and still am, a virgin).  I didn't find out she was still with him until after I had gotten in too deep to back out.  I fooled myself into thinking she would leave him.  She told me they weren't really in a relationship, and he not only knew about us but that he was fine with it.  That he had 'friends' outside the relationship as well.

Then I called her.

He picked up the phone and asked who I was and why I was calling.  I could tell by the tone of his voice that he had no idea who I was, and was pissed off that I was calling to talk to her.  She called me later and asked me what the hell I said to him to set him off like that, as he had verbally ripped her a new one later that night.

It was then that I realized that she not only had lied to me from the beginning, but that she was lying to me still.  That was when I broke it off.  I never called her or talked to her again after that day.

Thankfully I'm over her now, and though I suffer from life-long depression, I'm doing okay.  I have my bad days, of course, but thankfully they're few and far between.

I guess what I'm saying is, it takes a lot of guts and courage to share your pain with the world.  The world can be a harsh place, and not very forgiving of people's faults and sorrows, so I thank you for sharing yours with us.  ~hugs~  Stay well, man, and remember that there are people out here who share your pains and sorrows, and who are willing to talk if you need it.
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014   General Artist
thanks a lot for the support :hug:
and i'm sorry to read your story. people can be so false, so horrible, but there are others out there, true and loyal people on which we can rely on. i have had more than my fair share of false people, but now i have gotten rid of them and i consider those that i have left to be true and real.
i hope you will feel much better and get over this girl :heart:
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Chakat-Stripedfur Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2014
You are quite welcome.  I know what it's like to go through crap like this, so people like us need to stick together.  And don't worry about me, I've been over her for quite a while now.  I met someone else online that I've been talking to for about eight years now, and that's helped quite a bit.  That, and my awesome online friends have refused to let me be depressed, so that's kept me in check.

How've you been?
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Lemonthief Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I find this painting(s) equally touching as your story. This made me feel good and gave me some hope for myself. Thank you. This is what art should do for people; make the viewer reflect about their current life and then give that current life a healing future. 

 "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." This is what I'm telling myself everyday and this painting really shows that. The pain is only temporary. I'm not religious so I don't believe in eternal damnation, but I do believe that if I were to commit suicide, it would leave permanent scars in the people that care about me and I would be making a selfish decision.

This "dark" painting has a beautiful meaning. Thank you for making this.
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014   General Artist
thank you for understanding it's meaning :heart:
i'm so happy that i can give others a little hope with my art. means a lot!
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HollyRoseFowlCasson Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for sharing and inspiring . . . my gratitude is inexpressible.
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014   General Artist
thank you!
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Harry-E-Hooper Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Professional General Artist
excellent and well done, Ina......a masterpiece...
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014   General Artist
thank you so much harry!
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Harry-E-Hooper Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014  Professional General Artist
you're welcome...:)
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Nichrysalis Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I know what it means to suffer, to harm, and eventually, to heal. Thank you for creating this, and for doing so so evocatively.

The first painting presents to me a stage of suffering. The paintings are introspective and self-examining and the stage of suffering portrayed here is one of being distanced from oneself and others. The introduction and presence of an alien-like subject grasped me the first time I saw this and told me the emotions that are being ferried in the mind of the subject. This isn't what they look like, this is how they feel like: different, unfitting, an alien. This captures suffering for what it very well may be. I take away from this painting that suffering is the reversal of your identity.

I find that for me, the second painting is sometimes hard to look at, but not for any aesthetic reason, it's hard to look at for what it embodies: the concept of harm being done to oneself... by one's own actions. This is harm in its truest form, having harm inflicted and letting yourself take the damage from it; from this painting I feel that physical and psychological harm is inflicted when you begin to tolerate self-destructive thought and self-endangering actions.

The third painting tells me that, if one is to look in the right place, one will find the scars where harm was inflicted and that the pain is still a burden. But it is not an open wound: it does not actively burn, instead, it is a vagary of a memory when remembered, a stint in stilted conversation. I feel hopeful looking at this painting after transitioning from the two former pieces. Though, it seems, due to the pose of the subject, that hope was present throughout. And that's what it takes. This painting has and will stay with me to tell me that healing comes from harm, given time.

Nic
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2014   General Artist
i want to thank you, for telling me what these paintings mean to you, what you think and feel when you look at them.
it's always very giving to know what others like about my work, and in this case it's extra special, since i have come to understand that these paintings had a big impact on you.

we will continue to heal :heart:
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Nichrysalis Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I want to thank you, I'm having an especially hard time right now, and I needed to see these again to remind me that there is hope. Thank you. I'm on the verge of tears.

We will heal. :heart:
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2014   General Artist
I'm having a hard time too, and have had for quite a while.
i looked at this deviation to try to comfort myself, and your words stood out.
i'm glad i could give something back to you :heart:
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Nichrysalis Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:hug:
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teddybearcholla Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Well done!! And congratulations on your DD! :heart:
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2014   General Artist
thank you very much :)
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teddybearcholla Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Welcome!
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Andecaya Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:heart:
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2014   General Artist
:heart:
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Mythraill Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Student Artist

this is poetry to me, it touches the hart!

and i know you'll be able to heal, everyone can, if they believe in it!

and you believe too

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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2014   General Artist
thank you so much!
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Mythraill Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2014  Student Artist
no problem ^^
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Sherrylin Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Keep your head up high and dust off your shoulders , be able to roar and live life !
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014   General Artist
will do! thanks :)
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Eightence Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so simple but also powerful, and wonderfully done. Simply beautiful, and it speaks to my heart.

I am so glad you're healing now. Stage two is terrible. I wish I'll get to stage three too. 
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Photopathica Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2014   General Artist
thanks so much :hug:
you will get there!
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